hurt !

♥  february 26 . 2019  ♥

Okay, some clearing 😊 after a period of silence.
Im listening to this tarot reader who says im deeply hurt 😳
And yes, i think i finally gotta admit: i am deeply hurt!

After some years now of spiritual growth, acceptance (mmm?), cleansing … i gotta admit all this ‘light-work’ is sooo fucking dark!

Where is that light? That bright, illuminescent, all compassing Source light?! Yeah of course duh, its inside me lol. I passed that stage 😎 Found it!

Light attracks shadow, so, here it is! Right, hurt, yes again, thought i was ‘over’ that, loved all no matter what. The point is, i do, love all, always did. That started the hurt to begin with. I cant hate, cant blame others, never. I know im the creator and it doesn’t really matter 😁

The hurt is back, tenfold. The brighter, the darker, isnt it?
Some days ago i discovered (lol, welcome Geurts!) i am a shadow worker, at the moment i am, guess i always was. Now i know there really is place for the shadows to come. Always there in the shadows, now its time.

27032019 the Devil enters
how appropiate 👿

possession

♥  december 27 . 2017  ♥

I can’t remember when i saw this movie for the first time, it could well be 1981, the year Possession came to the movie houses. At that time they were quite obscure, not really mainstream stuff. Possession is made by Andrzej Zulawski while he and his wife were divorcing.

The first time i saw it, i was in complete horror. I couldn’t say anything about this movie, coz i didn’t know what to think anymore. So confusing! I managed to get this movie, this confusion and total chaos, out of my head and went on with life.

Well, guess i thought i moved on with life, coz deep under the surface 🌀

Yes, i began to appreciate this movie and although it also repelled me and i didn’t know what to think of it, it was able to confuse me, sneak into my head. How and why? Why did it trigger me this much? I was fascinated!

Okay, i saw it a second, third and fourth time.

I mention the movie because to me it is about awakening, duality, the lowest of people and the best of people. I intent to write more about it. 🤔

IMDb about Possession
Wikipedia about Possession
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