♥ january 4 . 2019 ♥
# Pages of my journal – the Hermit’s journey #
As i sit here on my couch, my higher self on my right as usual, i reflect, 2018 is gone.
And i am good at beating myself up: you havent done enough, you havent worked hard enough, you are not worthy.
Higher Self smiles. “Thank god, at least YOU are here!” i tell HS. “WE ALL are”, he says 🙂
Reflecting: yeah, guess i screwed up some things lol, but mostly i grew, i realize i grow and keep growing, against all odds, against all fears.
2018 : Temperance, The always loving Raphael, Wings (fack, i have huge ones, still dont know how to use them lol), lots of pain and an ocean of tears, can i shed more? Yes, they tell me with a smile lol, mfs 🙂
Letting go : 2 turns to 3 The Divine Step In
Ana is visiting me lately, more frequently. She still doesn’t really tell me who she is …
oke, as far as i know : our history goes back to Vega and the Lyran star system, i was Vega …
or, we were Vega, something like that, there was some unity together with Alcyone, the Pleiadian central sun.
Nowadays, Ana is my spirit guide, but her energy is sooo high its hard for me to reach her.
Let go, understand her. But i FEEL her, and she is mostly all white with a blue gaze, like ice.
My first name for her was The Ice Queen. The second was His Mother (lol), the third was Ana.
Ah, letting go yes!
Struggling the whole year with attachments, first and foremost to the twin flame journey. We gotta get rid of the label! It served its purpose. It drives people mad, yet, asking ourselves is the start, isn’t it?
Yes, what is the worst attachment? What is the worst fear?
Rejection popped up a few weeks ago, thought id handled that lol. Guess not.
Ah, i wanna end this now! Uh, i mean the journalling 🙂
Wrapping up not only 2018 but a bunch of lifetimes yo!
With a bunch of love and madness 😎❤️😁