ZP & time

nothing really matters

♥  april 11 . 2019  : Madonna : nothing really matters  ♥

# please watch the vid, it is beautiful #

trying to define .. darkness, light, duality
and for some time now
sometimes …

i know
nothing really matters
nothing will ever really matter
coz
all will always matter
whatever!

what if
all is the same
all is
just
all
there is

what if
all is true
and every one
is right

what if
all is wrong
and there is
no
God
just
US

what if

there is
no god
and
you are
the CREATOR

imagine

mother of atoms

man van turf

♥  october 15 . 2018 : poem 1987 ♥

natte turf
ijzerrijk begraven
het lichaam trekt
kille haven

de inhoud is
bewaard gebleven
en heeft tumor
gegeven

verkleurd
verkoold
geweten

de hersens gezeefd
tienmaal geleefd
hemel bezeten

poems are hard to translate because of rhyme and rhythm, yet i give it a try  🙃

wet peat
iron rich buried
body heat
cold harbor

the content is
well kept
and has given
tumor

discolored
charred
conscience

the brain sifted
ten times lived
heaven possessed

a message from Bob

♥  august 7 . 2018  ♥

There is more about Robert Monroe on my site, not much yet, more to come. See tag below.

there is no beginning, there is no end, there is only change

there is no teacher, there is no student, there is only remembering

there is no good, there is no evil, there is only expression

there is no union, there is no sharing, there is only one

there is no joy, there is no sadness, there is only love

there is no greater, there is no lesser, there is only balance

there is no stasis, there is no entropy, there is only motion

there is no wakefulness, there is no sleep, there is only being

there is no limit, there is no chance, there is only a plan

from Robert A. Monroe : Ultimate journey

There are 3 books in this series.
Book 1 : Journeys out of the body
Book 2 : Far Journeys
Book 3 : Ultimate Journey

feel like falling down ?

♥  february 21 . 2018 : all about perception  ♥

This journey has thrown me of my feet, once again. “Revelations will come, divine timing you know”, they say and they smile 😎 they know how impatient i can be.

The Tower came crashing in, i am sick at home, flu. Guess i was waiting and waiting, and nothing happened, and i pushed and pushed, pushed myself.

Now i am slowly realizing what state i am in: “Yes, you felt like nothing happened, you were at a standstill 🙄 and I told you before, you are pushing yourself too hard”. No use arguing with Higher Self so i keep my mouth lol.

I rebelled against meditation (haven’t meditated for 2 weeks i guess): “If you ‘guys’ don’t tell me what’s going on, then .. then …. i stop meditating!” Something like that lol. And that’s stupid cause in meditation i get messages 🤔

* and i fell and fell . down the spiral of life . my life . all my lives . well . some of my lives 🔓 some clarity . the whole story . can’t see the whole picture . sense it . all around us . in ZP *

And they show me, all the time i thought i was struggling to get up the spiral and i thought i kept falling, the spiral itself was spiraling up, and yes i wasn’t able to keep up with the energy, so i thought i was falling. Lol, confusing concept! ☯️

But i get it! LET GO AND LET GOD (aka they) ♥️

where the fuck

♥  january 12 . 2018  ♥

I am preparing for a light body meditation, getting ready for the ride 😊 cleaning some stuff and breathing into Gaia and up to Source.

Ah, there’s my cab, a bright white shiny merkabah softly coming my way. “Get in,” Higher Self smiles, “this is your merkabah”.
I really feel this now, i recognize it, this one is mine! And i burst out in tears.

“You deserve it,” HS smiles, “you can handle it now, you are ready”.

Now all kinds of questions run through me : where was it all that time i didn’t had it, what does this mean, now i have it back?

But the most urgent question is : where the fuck do i park my merkabah? 😳

Robert Monroe : quote

♥  november 20, 2017 : i am more than my physical body  ♥

Robert Monroe was a successful and distinguished business executive, dedicated family man, and noted pioneer in the investigation of human consciousness. He invented the Hemi-Sync® audio technology and founded The Monroe Institute®, a global organization dedicated to expanding the uses and understanding of consciousness >> more info The Monroe Institute

because i am more than physical matter , i can perceive that which is greater than the physical world . therefore , i deeply desire to expand , to experience ; to know , to understand ; to control , to use such greater energies and energy systems as may be beneficial and constructive to me and to those who follow me . also , i deeply desire the help and cooperation , the assistance , the understanding of those individuals whose wisdom , development and experience are equal or greater than my own . i ask their guidance and protection from any influence or any source that might provide me with less than my stated desires

in my angels i trust

♥  november 3 . 2017 : but get the f*ck out of my belly  ♥

A trip to Zero Point 

Sitting on my couch, hearing a song .. and crashing: pain, belly shaking, harder, whole body shaking. Oh no, here we go again! I need a wall and have to lie down, in my staircase, for Christ sake 🤬

Shaking harder, my head, uncontrollable, my belly feels like exploding. Theres something in there. And i cry: “Get out of my belly!” I am scared now and i want it out!

* i realize i have angels and i ask: Metatron, Michael, Ariel, Uriel, Raphael, Zadkiel, Sandalphon, help me please, what is this?! They come and calm me. I form a pillar of light in my body, from Gaia (help me Gaia, please) to my crown chakra, out to the Universe. And activate the Rainbow Bridge. * 🌈

Get out of my belly! Till, a huge sun rises from out of my belly. Wtf, is this good or bad? It’s a bright, friendly sun, no problems. But something has to get out of there, i WANT it out. I let my sun grow, expand, and i examine it. Angels around me, forming a circle, i am safe, lol, just checking, sorry 👍

There is something hidden in there. Now i sense: don’t be scared, don’t be angry, ask it to come out. So i do: will you please come out? I won’t harm you. I ask twice. It comes out, some undefinable, softly greenish glowing form, out of my solar plexus and going up, kinda sneaky lol, as if it doesn’t want to be seen. NO WAY, I think and i am scared again, it wants to go to my heart! The angels tell me: let go, embrace it, hold it. ♥️

Mmmm, trust lol? I guess YES. I sense: hold it as you would hold a baby, it wants to be held. And i calm down and i take this baby and hold it as if it was my own.

Some minutes later, i have calmed down (what the fuck was this? Whats happening? Can YOU all please tell me why? etc etc). Okay: first thing they give me is my twin, he was this entity, a very young child. Then, my belly is my power center, my sun is huge, he was hiding in my sun. Why? I GAVE him control over my solar plexus and it IS attractive. But what he WANTS (needs ?) is to reside in my heart. And So Be It 🙏

Lol, i guess i don’t have to meditate anymore, it comes natural. And, when they want! Free will? I really doubt that! Mine is going down the drain 😮

In WE we trust 😍😘

the death of Vega

♥  oktober 29 . 2017 : dimensionality is a human concept  ♥

3D, 5D we are quite known with this concepts now. We think we have integrated them in our daily lives. By the way, shifting paradigms, shifting timelines? Do we really think we know what we are doing? Hold on!! 🌀

Do we? Join me on the next step: Zero Point. The Creators Dominion, The space without space, time without time, dimensions without dimensions. Can you still follow me?

I went back, way back: Paris 19th century, Lemuria bout 12k B.C., the rise of the Pleiadians, go back go back they say, the Lyran war, the death of Vega, i WAS Vega 🤔

Then i realized, i didn’t have to be Vega to feel her pain, her dying. I merge more and more into unity consciousness, into Zero Point where timelines collapse, where all is one, where i don’t have to be that murderer of my twin in Paris, where i no longer am the healer in Lemuria.

No, i am not that past or that present, more and more i am the energy. That flame of Creation that experiences everything, connected to all that is.

And fuck you!! Its fucking hard, lol.

Thanks dear Kat ♥️

poor abandoned me

♥  october 24 . 2017 : resurrection of a light carrier ♥

I just started meditation and my heart begins to ache, sharp pins. Where is this hurt? I start to cry and i sense: “What do you lack?” Huh, what? “Acceptance? Money? Love? A loving mother?” I think of my childhood. Lol, still cleaning up old crap 😥

And now light shows, i lack light! And i feel angry, they took my light! “Who took your light?” the presence asks. Mmmm, i did, i have to admit. “Why did you do that?” I was not worthy of it, not worthy to carry it with dignity and courage. 🔙

I shut my own light off because no-one saw it, no-one wanted it and i felt rejected. And i failed to spread the light of Creation so i was unworthy of carrying it. My connection with Source was gone, no one to share my light with, i was alone, yes yes abandoned, poor me. Soul comes in now, gently, and i invite her in. “All your lack is lack of light, nothing else”, and she smiles. ☯️

The Pleiadians step in (the healing pyramid of light), a small group. And He is there, the first time i see Him as a Pleiadian 🙂 Yes of course! Before Lemuria we had lives! Together, He comforts me, gives me trust, and we melt in some way for a short time.

Then my soul shows me: in Zero Point there is no time and as you know, only the NOW exists. All your so called lives are now. The more you reach ZP the more you will experience all your lives becoming one. And the ability to influence all.

At this point the meditation (voice) takes over again and im drifting away in an orange, golden orb. The sun just broke through the clouds and shines through my closed eyes. After the meditation Higher Self tells me: “Take your time, don’t be so hard on yourself, okay?” 🙄

And yes, my big yearning becomes sooo clear to me: i want the only person that i can really, truly share my light with,  the one that resonates at the exact same frequency.
with love, may the Light be with you

I had a link to the vid on youtube but the vid is gone. It was one of my favs …

♥️

duality is a veil

♥  oktober 11 . 2017 : ZP – the merging point  ♥

passages of my journey home

Mmm, this turned out to be a bit of a philosophical and scientific post 🤔

Merging of Duality. Ever wondered where two (counter) parts merge? Can you imagine the merging and how that actually feels? And do you try to bring the parts together, as i did? To reduce the space between the counterparts?

A few days ago HS told me to go deeper into my pain and there was already so much pain. I replied: Fuck you! He told me: Fuck YOU! You know what, Higher Self is always right of course. 🙄

I am doing some carpentry in my new home and think bout Higher Self’s words, and i allow my pain to be here and i cry. I let myself drift away with the pain, deeper, deeper, spiraling down, i sink on the floor, crying, shaking. Ok, stay there and feel it! Feel it.  😭

My darkness grows, dark grey smokey trails, till, some light comes in. It expands and my feelings of joy expand. Now i feel / experience as much pain as i feel bliss. They are equal, in balance, and i don’t know what to choose, and i don’t have to! So, i feel both, i let both in. I laugh and i cry.

The strange thing is though, i realize, really realize, there is no merging of dualities because of coming closer, nope, there is a merging cause they are allowed to expand, to grow to infinite space (ZP?) and yes, move away from each other.  ⚛️

* not making them smaller so they will fit in in the space that is convenient for you, not ‘giving them a place’ but by letting them be the infinite energy they are *

And in that infinite space they have the freedom to merge, into oneness, into Yin and Yang
Venus and Mars, DM and DF ♀️♂️

Beyond the veil there is only oneness.
I hope someone can relate to this, lol.

With love ♥️

there is a stillness inside me

♥  2017-7-7 : the creator in the eye of the storm  ♥

I sit on my terrace in my lovely garden and i look at my wonderful dog named Bliksem, something like Lightning in English. He gives me so much joy. And i am saying goodbye. 😔

I read bout the July waves and yes, i do feel it is gonna be a hell of a ride, fasten seat-belts! There is no point of return, no u-turn in sight. Yes, we have free will of course .. lol .. did you believe that?! We always do what we are supposed to do.

July storms are ferocious, a wild wind pounds on my door. Dark shadows lurking in the corners of my room, the darkest caves of my mind and my emotions illuminated. Yet, i feel sooo quiet, sooo centered, sooo creative, so NOW!

* there is a stillness inside me
i am the creator in the eye of the storm *

I sit in the middle of my granny’s kitchen, 5 years of age, playing with the buttons she keeps in an old biscuit drum, all kinds of buttons in ONE drum! So, i sort them out. From little to big, from light to dark, 2 holes, 4 holes, wood, plastic, metal,  you name it. In the middle of the kitchen floor while granny is trying to prepare a stew. 🍯

And she smiles her all compassing smile and i smile. How i love my granny! She knows who i am and she lets me be who i am. And i can sit here for hours with the buttons and HER who is with me always. 💋

Yes, I AM The Eye Of The Storm. All around me is crumbling, falling apart, whirling and swirling. ME, in the middle, in the void, a creator. How do i want my world to be? What do i build with all these fragments? WHAT DO I REALLY WANT? And i build, from little to big, from dark to light, from separation to wholeness, you name it. 🌎

Yes, there is a place inside me, my silent dominion, my eye of the storm.

are you experiencing a human body?

♥  july 2 . 2017   ♥

“Alcyone, is this the way it works?,” i ask HIM, “me, waiting for you, you don’t show, me getting nervous, thinking maybe i AM crazy? What the f*ck do i imagine! Communicating with a sun! What if HE never shows again? What if, what if .. lol, now you laugh, but it’s not fair! You know! You are a celestial, ascended being, i am not”. “Aren’t you, little one? Really, don’t you see?” Alcyone replies. 🌞

I go inward. The wind is whispering, the birds are singing, the sun is setting and i am alive! The waves rush in, energies are of chart, the moon is rising and i am alive! Atoms form, atoms disintegrate, inertia, entropy and duality. AND I AM ALIVE! 🐦

I take a walk in my neighborhood, dense populated. Houses packed tight together. And i wonder where they come from: the houses, the doors, the bricks, the gardens. I feel sorry for them, coz they can’t move, they are stuck in this particular spacetime. 🏡

I ask: how did you get here? One house shows me a long journey of floating through the universe, floating, floating, no specific direction, just bliss. Till, something manifests, THEY are drawn to this place, get caught and transformed. 🌀

IT is stuck now, with trillions of other ITS/THEY. Time is solid, very static, trapped! “I can’t move, i can’t leave, i have no choice”, IT tells me. “Nope you haven’t,” i tell IT, “you are a house now, you have no free will. But some day, you will die and you will crumble and you will become a single atom again and you will wonder off as the solitary I Am presence You Are. Till then, be a home”. 🙃

And see, Alcyone smiles again 😊

away team

♥  june 12 . 2017 : 23:17  ♥

Spiraling down    leveling    spiraling down    leveling     fack! Cant level.
Balance, balance    ok now. Into density, heavier and heavier.
First ring : nah, been there. Second ring : auch, who bit me?
Third ring : a bit light. Fourth ring : open arms and mouths   and legs   no thanks.
Fifth ring : pain   spiraling again   deeper   in. ⚛
Sixth ring : orange and a golden sun. Hi! Oh, hello, says the orange ray.
Seventh ring : finally, destination reached!

Lyran time ignLTLyra : 1,179,001 😎
Hey commander, im in, what are your orders?
Go to sleep little one, soon you will be waken, go to sleep now 🙂

and i fall

a golden me

♥  april 21 . 2017  ♥

BlueSkyHynosis : guided past life regression (youtube) 43:11min

The narrator leads me to a temple, there’s a corridor with doors, i pick one door and go in. Then he asks me questions: how do i look, age, what’s inside, how’s dinner, etc.

The corridor : i choose a door. The door is golden and emitting a soft golden light. A door, very clean and stainless. The number on the door is 11. It has no door handle, it just softly opens to me.

Inside : my feet are golden, i am totally golden it seems, no clothes, just, i am golden. Hair? Gender? Jewelry? I really can’t tell, just that all is golden.

The room : all is golden, the floor, the ceiling, the 3 walls, emitting a soft golden light. The room is square, there’s no opposite wall from where i am standing, the wall is missing and i just look into the universe. Beautiful! It’s dark blue with purple and reds, i see stars, nebula’s, milky ways, I am in awe.

What’s your age : i can’t tell, i am very old! Thousands of years..

What’s the year : it is 9,343 lol, past life i think 🙂 Yep, time doesn’t exist! All fades into one.

How is dinner : i am floating in space now, kinda spinning around and spiraling through space. I am taking in light and i am emitting light. Very at ease and joyful.

Most important scene : i stand again in the golden room, looking into space, where the fourth wall is missing. I see a new star being born and I did this, it’s my creation.

Which person is there : ok wait, it is OUR creation! Coz now i notice the OTHER BEING in the room. It (yep it) looks just like me, a golden soft glowing being, totally at ease and emitting so much love. Just like me i can’t tell if it’s male or female. And i feel it doesn’t matter either. We together are feminine and masculine. I ask myself and IT if it is my twin flame? My higher self? Who are you? And i instantly know, get the answer: I am you, you are me, we are soul, we are two, we are one, don’t label it. We are love, we are creators! And we just created this new star.

Where are you : i got the name Sagittarius. The city : Lyca.

What is the lesson, the message : we, the two of us here in the room, are powerful creators. We create from within the heart. And i feel our hearts emitting sooo much love and light and joy and compassion!

What does ‘you’ there has to tell you : me here (the now, earth, my present life) and me there (the past/future) is all one. Trust you, trust me, i am your higher self, you are me, i am you, i love you, we ARE powerful creators. We are the universe, belief it. Trust it.

Ok, that’s it. So beautiful!
At the beginning of this meditation, my hands got so heavy and warm, glowing! When in the room with our hearts emitting love, i felt them, they are connected to my heart, they create together. They are important: ‘use your hands wisely and with a loving touch’, i was told.
Almost all the time of this meditation, i cried, tears of joy, of happiness, of oneness. And, of remembrance, i remembered! Lol, i remembered the future!
And all the time, there was only love, joy, all was peace and so so … i can’t explain, nothing interfered, not once a single ‘negative’ energy! Not the slightest sign of…